My life a life
of shame and regret I
dwell in my hole of self pity my heart
blackened by self righteous anger I build
my world upon sand my time is spent in
a constant struggle just for a breath
of air but I find I'm continually drowning
sinking downward
into my despair the
things that I trust in when put to the
test will not withstand fire but still
I rely on my flesh leaving my mind in
the grasp of the liar when will I learn
when will I turn around and reach for
you why can't I see why can't I hear you
calling for me always the same I scream
louder so I can't hear you whisper my
name always the same I don't want to
hear I already know I'm to blame I try
myself always to no avail I try myself
again only to fail then I turn in my
shame and my regret to see you still
there Your hand still outstretched wrists
impaled with my selfishness brow bleeding
from thorns of pride Your back whipped
with my words of hatred I've thrust my
spite into Your
side I can't comprehend
why You even care for me but You choose
to be there my life a life of worship
and praise I dwell in the midst of Your
spirit my heart change begins on the
inside I now have my feet on solid ground
help me to trust in You to leave behind
my shame and regret free my mind from
the grasp of the liar my God release
me from death give me life.